Life

the annals of the laboratory state
"Leviathan" by thomas hobbes
microscopes and protozoa
love canal and lois gibbs
remembrance and activism
darwin's finches
rebelais
cartography
sweeps

i am dan.

i am to write about what drives me. not the fish in my room, not peeling clementines, not rolling beer cans down a roof. gifts water activism epidemiology community democracy autonomy. i long to be lost in something. being lost means you struggle to find something, anything, and you learn to go with your lead. im tired of confusing myself and being overwhelmed by life. im not looking for an answer, or direction, or purpose. not at all, just the sense of knowing that this kind of chaos is what id like. theres nothing at all wrong with disorder and mayhem, one just needs the right kind.

i wonder what the toxins are that i unknowingly have in my body. science tells us that our body is actually composed of billions of bacteria swarming around. our body is a symbiotic organism. bodies, are symbiotic organisms. bodies are composed of interweaving parts, different species, working together in one way or another. that way may be mutualism or competition, but it is a relationship, and thats what counts. so what if we take that idea and spread it further, beyond our body to the social body? what would we find? would we find pockets of collaboration? would we find fruitful exchange? would be find, in little corners and fragments, people who at the depths of their hearts are just trying to be good people to one another? would it even be that difficult of a search? or maybe, our assumption that the world is one competitive mess (no, Hobbes)tells us more than we might like about who we are as a culture. perhaps theres still some truth to marcel mauss. truth has a history too.

what did yahweh think when he killed leviathan and brought order? smugness, or just the work of the day?