this was the first actually fun weekend i had in a while. completely uneventful, but i hung out with people i havent seen in a while, went to SMOG shows, and went out on some drives with people. uneventful, but i had a good time, and felt pretty happy.

ive been thinking, what do i need to simply be happy? its weird this year not really having "a group," but thats just something about me. put me around the same people for too long and ill go insane. i guess hopping groups is just the price then. but in Brazil i had the chance and opportunity to ask what i need to just be happy. nothing long term, just, for now. academics and school are important. and i think im doing pretty well in my classes it seems. but academics shouldn't be the top priority. being happy should. and maybe ive been looking to books and words and professors to legitmiate my intelligence and not just looking at the world around me to be happy. its spring. time to go on walks with people. actually go to other dorms and parties. call people up to get food, go outside, hang out. maybe even just meet some new people and see about that. working out, laughing with friends, having interesting and engaging conversations, reading for pleasure. because writing papers and underlining sentences is not going to make me happy. that seems obvious now, but it basically just hit me. which is funny.

im listening to a johnny cash cover of "bridge over troubled water." its great. today i need to write a rough draft of my junior fellowship proposal. i could work on my final anthropology paper, but thats in a few weeks.

seems set or something. dragonball evolution comes out on thursday. i may have to force my friends to see it with me.