Tuesday, July 7, 2009

sometimes that feels like life.

im sick and dont know how that happened. im sitting here at work sneezing uncontrollably.
i woke up at 5 am today. dont know why either. i slept in my bed for the first time in weeks -- ive been sleeping on my couch usually because it reminds me of sleeping in a hammock and i like that.

i went to a hearing at Capitol Hill today on reinstating the Superfund tax. it was enjoyable. half of it was on background to Superfund and Love Canal so i was suprised how well informed i am. Lois spoke on the issue of hurricane and weather risks in relation to Superfund sites, something i hadnt put much thought into before.

her sister, who lives in Montana, gave a talk on mining in the region and the need to have a Superfund tax. a scientist from Portland's port authority gave his own pitch on the difficulties in reinstating Superfund when you dont have a single polluter and chemical to target -- such as, when, you have a port that has had 100 years of come-and-go industrial activity, with a wide range of toxic exposure.

but the speakers pointed to the need for the tax. Obama has outlined the importance of Superfund in his budget, but pushed it to the 2011 agenda. Gibbs and the others agreed that the time is now, more than ever, to push the bill forward. without the tax, it is impossible to clean up the thousands of thousands of sites across the country. Gibbs touted the "pizza" concept: for evert $10,000 of profit an industry makes, only $12 goes to Superfund cleanup if the bill is reinstated and financed through the federal government -- the price of a large pizza. also, without the legal tax, cleanup funds must come from taxpayers, all 100% of it. which is, unmistakably, unethical -- ask people suffering from cancer clusters, birth defects, and misscarriages to pay their own money to clean up an industry's pollutants = wrong.

port authority man made another good point -- for the EPA to do Superfund cleanup, they must take $s out of other environmental research agendas like global warming, infectious disease, etc. things that are important, in other words, get reduced funding for common-good issues because the government wont push polluters to pay.

in short, Superfund should be reinstated. Lois gave a quick memory from when Pres. Carter visited Love Canal to announce the evacuation of the 900 families there -- when Carter came, he told Lois that "there will never be another Love Canal." they were going to made a federal fund, a super fund, he told her, to make sure that people without financial resources wouldnt have to be ignored by the government. and yet thirty years later, sites still exist, now at more risk than ever due to climate change.

did i mention that all an industry has to do is declare bankrupcy to avoid Superfund taxes?

what else...

tomorrow i am voltar-ing to the Capitol Visitor Center once again with Stephen to go to a reception for the new director of the National Institute of Environmental Health Sciences. should be awesome. i get to shake hands and be known as "Dan the Intern". in fact, today I lent my laptop to the congressman's aide for his powerpoint presentation. only, my computer sucks and freaked out and didn't work, as usual. it wasn't too embarrasing. i managed to make my desktop pretty clear. except for a jpeg called "coffee", which is a map of coffee trade i posted earlier. which Lois and the port authority guys found hillarious. but then i helped out with technical difficulties the best i could, mad respect.

im incredibly exhausted but will be going into adams morgan tonight to relax with some people i met last week and went to fireworks with. i showed them Kramer's Books in Dupont Circle, where we had some pretty good veggie pizza and an awesome brownie sunday. i was tempted to buy an Irish Coffee because they are like crack and all, but $7 is pretty hefty.

oh and i went food shopping, if you can call it that at the 7/11, and bought mango, bread, milk, rasin bran, and 2 hard boiled eggs. the eggs come with a salt and pepper packet. which to me is exciting. this sunday i am going to the farmer's market in dupont circle and loading up on a weeks worth of actual produce. which is cheaper than the 7/11. and maybe find out if i can do some volunteer work at a farm nearby. i emailed Paul from the TLS department at Bard about working there or volunteering or i dont really care what next year, but, as the last time i emailed him, he didnt get back to me yet.

in Janurary Orion Magazine, this amazing collection of writings about place/nature/culture, accepts submissions on practically anything related to science, nature, agriculture, sustainability. my aim is to submitt a piece.

also thinking of starting doing something more productive on this blog than just writing about my life. seems somewhat egotistical. since all i do is read non-fiction now, im going to start posting book reviews. maybe ill also put them on Amazon.com, but ill start here and see what kind of feedback i get. that's a hint for leave feedback when i post a review.

within the week ill write one for John McPhee's Pine Barrens. im in the middle of Jan Morris's Trieste - and the meaning on nowhere, her reflection on her city, Trieste, which lies along the Adriatic coast to the very east in Italy. much like Pamuk's Istanbul, it seems to be about the legacy and experience of a city whose identity is very much now a memory, whose past is its only glory in the midst of empire, and who now, like its inhabitants, finds itself a liminal entity, betwixt and between, belonging-as Morris's title puts it-nowhere. although unlike the city of Istanbul, poised between East and West, Morris's Trieste "belongs" somewhere between the past glory of the Hapsburg Empire, the development of Western Europe, and the now diminished Eastern Europe. a place within Europe, but outside of it. its prose is slightly awkward at times, but of course i like the concept and its a good read.

one more.



Monday, July 6, 2009






i find this crite-sheet to be hillarious.

"Solid student. Consistently high quality work. Good understanding of the material. Quiet in class, but did well engaging with his group."

im glad my biology professor had enough time to write full sentences. oh wait..

tomorrow for work i get to go to a Superfund hearing on Capitol Hill.

because im bored and falling asleep as i update this web site for work


i frantically emailed my writing professor about career advice and such based on what he knows of my interests and my writing thus far.

meh!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

legumes and risk assessment

compiling epidemiologic studies on solid waste incinerators. waiting for my boss to give me feedback on my fact pack suggestions. slightly bored at work. so im researching graduate schools instead. figures.

im looking at anything between epidemiology, agriculture, infectious disease, and capacity building.

johns hopkins has MPH concentrations in sustainability & health and in infectious disease. they have certificates in community-based health research.

tufts has a dual MPH/MS in nutrition. one of the nutrition concentrations is a MS in agriculture, food, and environment. the MPH concentration could be in epidemiology or general public health or global public health.

ucdavis has a MS or MPH in epidemiology with concentrations in infectious disease and in wildlife epidemiology. they also have a MS in international agricultural development with a number of concentrations, in geography and in plant pathology of interest to me.

yale has a dual MPH/MEM, masters in environmental management.


id say those are the four im looking
at right now, leaning towards the dual degrees in epidemiology and agriculture.

i emailed the TLS department @ Bard about ways i can contribute and participate in the community garden. theres also a farm near New Paltz that accepts volunteers and internships, and its only less than a hour away. i also have wednesdays and fridays off next sem, and gardening has always been good stress relief. and exercise.

maybe i should email allen wright about how he got involved in gardening. also, i heard p
aula kline's name come up at work yesterday. somebody mentioned her name in regards to a Quaker School coalition. funny huh?

im going through about 1-2 books a week depending. istanbul: memories and the city was really fantastic. i hope i can write something like that eventually. i didn't know Pamuk was originally in architecture school before he dropped out to become a writer. his family and friends in Turkey did not approve.

also finished fear of small numbers. and was suprised at how much i enjoyed it. Appadurai is one of the few anthropologists ive read who can actually write for an audience beyond scholars and students.

a bend in the river was also great. i dont read novels enough and i was pleased. took me the round-trip to NYC to finish it, but worth it. had a similar melancholic feel to it as did istanbul. i also picked up and read voices of marrakesh. to be honest, didn't like it. its very short, but thats not the problem. the author was in the city briefly, with literally no knowledge of arabic o
r berber dialects. as is such, he didnt understand anything that was said to him beyond hand motions, gestures, etc. which are important, but you miss out on a lot. he required on french translation, which must have annoyed people. youd think youd try to learn some of the language. but also, the book just didnt hold my attention. it was a short collection of sketches almost, which usually interests me and my writing style, but not this time. ive also started jaguar smile by rushdie, one of his few nonfiction works about nicaragua. but im getting the same feel for it as i did voices. rushdie at least understands spanish, but hes only in the country for three weeks. not that one shouldnt write about a place unless they go for long periods of time. i like the idea of offering solely a glimpse, but im not sure how well the idea works in practice. so far im getting frustrated with each chapter and feeling i havent really learned anything about nicaragua or the people's point of view, just glimpses of conversation and activity in the town square. its well written, thats for sure. but im having a hard time getting through it.

NYC was great and it was nice to see people again, or to have a social life in general, for that matter. i went to a Bulgarian bar/night club, which was hillarious and typically American-ized eastern european. also went to a nifty chocolate-bar down in St. Marks. also, very proud of myself, i did not get lost on the subway, as usually happens to me. i think im learning...

i also fixed my syllabus for diana & i's tutorial. renamed it to "Participatory democracy, health, and the environment". made three clusters instead of four. a month for each. removed a bunch of readings and added a bunch on participatory environmental management, especially in agriculture and food security/autonomy. i really need to write my participatory democracy essay, ive done all the readings. but diana is also in Brazil, so i don't think punctuality matters in this case.

last night i was tired after work so walked around looking for a calm bar to relax for a few minutes in. i went into one, which was on a roof, and it
was busy and crowded and everybody was wearing suits. i left. i found another small sports bar and ordered a whiskey w ginger ale and watched whatever game was playing for a few minutes. then i got a pretentious salad at Cosi's. then it began to rain. so i got an ice cream cone and walked home in the rain. and then i researched plant pathology some more and realized that to get a degree in it, you have to have oodles of undergrad courses in biology. so, there goes that. i dont feel like taking chemistry, organic chemistry, calculus, statistics, biochemistry, genetics, botany, etc.

although i do already have a lot of biology courses: biodiversity, amazon resource management & human ecology, fundamentals in ecosystem ecology, ecology & evolution, biology of infectious disease, ecology of infectious disease, biostatistics. 7. for a minor. so take that, ptretentious graduate school admissions. besides,
its not like Bard has the most wonderful depth of courses. expect for economics and literature...

im staying here for the 4th of july and am excited. a few friends will be in the area. were going to explore used bookstores, thrift stores, museums, and the zoo. i have a list printed out and folded in my pocket.

i sumbitted my resume for future whatevers to PATH, a Seattle and DC-based global health organization. they do community-based solutions to health
issues such as emerging infectious disease transmission, accesible and easily-usable health technologies and sanitation measures, access to vaccines and basic medicine. their solutions are meant to be sustainable in the communities they work with, socially and culturally appropriate, and of course, empowering to the degree that the community can maintain the processes on their own and hence the NGO will no longer be needed -- ie, sustainable. they seem really cool and somewhat exactly what im looking to do, and they had an option to submit a resume for whenever jobs and internships open up. why not?

i emailed a few professors about coffee and my Watson idea. i got a few useful replies. jeff had some good suggestions about places to go. he works w/ Turkey so i hope that helps. he gave a name or two of people i should get in touch with to learn more and maybe get some contacts. i also emailed alice and she had some good critiques and questions for me to think about. im going to focus on Arabica coffee. you might not be able to see it on the map, but its the red areas and lines. jeff suggested i look into India for consumption -- a big coffe culture is emerging there. if i do Arabica, then i can integrate my desire to travel by boat and follow 16-18th century trade routes.


pre-1400 coffee was grown primarily in Ethiopia. around 1400-1500 traders took coffee plants to Yemen, and from Yemen to India. around 1600 coffee expanded from India to Indonesia, and during the century the Dutch and Portuguese colonialists took coffee plants West around Africa to Western Europe. where coffee consumption skyrocketed and coffee houses became a big thing, not just as places to relax and get caffinated, but more to exchange ideas. they became mini-universities, in a sense, and were key areas where news, science, and literature grew and were exchanged between professionals. around the 1700s, Europeans began exporting Arabica coffee to be grown at their plantations in Latin America, namely in Costa Rica and Colombia.

so, thats where the Watson will take me, it seems. if i get it, ill start in Ethiopia for production, then to India for consumption, then to Indonesia for production, then around Africa to the Netherlands for consumption, then into Turkey for consumption as well, and then to Costa Rica or Colombia for production. along the way, ill be looking at community-building and exchange of knowledge and ideas. as to a social agenda, i want to explore food security and fears of how climate change will impact the coffee enterprise. but only for farmers, but also for consumers as well. agricultural losses impact both local livelihoods of farmers and producers as well as cultures and community centers that in some way, rely on coffee as well. and i think the country choices work really well in a way that will let me link together historical pieces on trade in these areas and on coffee houses and on the inequality in production. maybe i can even get a book out of it. but it would teach me a lot about agriculture, community, food anthropology, food security, international trade, and, yes, let me be on a boat.

i havent shaved in over a week.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Strawberry Fields Forever (Take 1)

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.
It doesn't matter much to me.

No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low.
That is you can't you know tune in but it's all right.
That is I think it's not too bad.

Let me take you down, 'cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about.
Strawberry Fields forever.

Always no sometimes think it's me, but you know I know when it's a dream.
I think, er No, I mean, er Yes but it's all wrong.
That is I think I disagree.

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i think or at least feel as if im coming into my own, somewhat. i think im falling for language and attempting to express myself constantly. ive taken a liking to memoirs and memory and recounting memory shaping it through a place.

i think i might ask my professor from my cultural technologies of memory class to do a tutorial in the spring on memoir and anthropology. how cool.

struggling. do you do what a part of you is passionate about but you have little actual experience with, or do you go with that burning in your heart? epidemiology and public health consulting seem wonderful and practical. but so does doing my all to become a writer. then again, one can do both, can't we?

i dont like long books and treatises. i like them pocket sized. whats the point of a book that wont fit in your back pocket? you cant exactly take it around with you if its not. i think books should be about moving and traveling. they should be mobile and portable. i dont like carrying a backpack around the city.

cities cities and cities. read invisible cities by calvino in a day. the metro system was made for book readers. in fact, i read the most when im moving, on the train, on the bus, on the boat. its when i sit in my room that i read the least.

why must i always be going somewhere? its as if im afraid to be still.

working through arjun appadurai's fear of small numbers. hes an anthropologist but one of the few whose writings flow rather easily. and ive liked his other writings. they always make me ponder.

today i picked up copies of orphan pamuk's istanbul: memories and the city and v. s. naipaul's a bend in the river. im reading pamuk's now. its excellent. memories are fascinating things, especially good reflections on them.

its funny how i dont write about my internship at all.

i like it enough, but when it comes down to it, i dont feel like explaining it. im updating fact packs on environmental health hazards & summarizing and synthesizing full cost accounting reports.

gross, those two words sound awful to say out loud.

maybe its just that activism can be a little frustrating? mind games and manipulation. mostly of images. maybe its just me. but why the obsession with children's faces as a tool to get support and donations?

chej is a strong organization. i like the organizing and technical assistance component and am proud to be a part of it. im looking forward to helping write summaries of successful environmental health struggles around the country for the "action line" component of our publication, everyone's backyard. but im not huge on most of the nation-wide campaigns we run. BE SAFE, the campaign for precautionary and prevention action around things like hazardous waste and improper use of toxins before they are released to the public (what i am doing the full cost accounting for) is useful and important, i think. but the green schools and pvc campaign i just can't really get into. i know its important, toxic shower curtains and children's toys and baby bottles and all. its just not my thing really. really.

im hoping that eventually i get to go to one or two or more of these conferences that stephen, my boss, goes to. thats what id really like to do. see how you explain the science and technical stuff and use it to organize public opinion. maybe soon. either way this will be a good experience. every day is at least somewhat different.

ive been thinking about the watson. im making a list of professors at bard to email this weekend. about their area of specialty. any good resources. potential contacts.

right now im thinking...

production:
colombia
indonesia
ethiopia/angola

consumption:
turkey
greece/italy
morocco/portugal

ive love to spend a year traveling by sea, train. playing checkers and chess. smoking hookah and talking politics & philosophy. working in fields of coffee beans. fair trade. local culture. feeling the breeze. moving.

all those things i never shut up about.

im in a good mood. you'd think a weekend with nothing to do or nobody to see might be dull. but its nice in its own way.

speaking off, im off for more coffee and reading. im wearing my jean shorts right now. love it.

Monday, June 15, 2009

ive decided.

im going to be a damn good writer. im going through a new book every couple days it seems. today i was bored at work so i made a four page long reading list. public health will make a good profession-but writing nonfiction should always be in there. my friend Ups' sister works in the public health field and does international health consulting and workshops in mostly rural areas. ive decided consulting and assistance is really what i want to do. something botton up. my superviser does that, science and technical assistance. holds workshops and presentations to town hall meetings, consults via phone and email. helps interpret technical documents.

but he says that the organizing and the politics always comes above the science. the science can strengthen your argument and give some sharp evidence, but in the end its the organizing that matters.

im collecting narratives of health workers and of impacted bodies and impacted landscapes and will try and start shaping some narrative of a senior project. ive been researching dioxin through and ecosystem ecology lens in Alaska and Canada and Siberia. dioxin gets absorbed by plantkon and such, which, following the food webs and trophic interactions penetrates into the diet and collective body of fish, into seals, into whales, into birds. the ecosystem becomes saturated with dioxin. humans too, native communities that still rely on traditional food supplies of seal and whale blubber not only for diet but also for cultural legacy. and then dioxin penetrates too into their fatty tissue, into breasts, into breastmilk, contaminating the bodies of newborns and generations to come. its the landscape and the physical bodies that become toxic. its the fish, the birds, the water, the flora, the fauna, the social, tudo.

i have two classes on ecosystem ecology and too many on anthropology and so it seems to be a topic close enough to home. close indeed. studies warn not to drink non-organic milk or meat products due to the presence of dioxin. all this talk is making me think of becoming a vegetarian again. if not just for the reason Antonetta asks, "What does my body consist of?"

good question.

but so im trying to read more memoirs-that-present-themselves-in-context-of-the-landscapes-and-time. again, i have a list. its too long. but i cant get enough of it.

ok ok now enough. ive already read 1/2 of Invisible Cities by Calvino today. time to finish the rest on the porch downstairs.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

more

soon ill update this.

my internship is. i research environmental health problems for communities and groups that apply to CHEJ for assistance. i help gather information into fact packs, which we then distribute to help in the understanding of the problem. my job currently consists of finding new medical studies, articles of interest, or policy updates. but more on this later. theres much more ill be doing. such as GIS mapping.

gone to the zoo.

met some of Dana's friends from American U.

might start doing Krav Maga.

spend a lot of time at Tryst, an excellent bar/coffee shop/lounge where i go to grab a Guiness w/ expresso (a Dufrain) and read a book or work on my tutorial, which i am far behind on.

the bulk of my time is spend wandering to parks, getting something nice to eat and drink, and reading. ive read 3 books so far and am constantly hungry for more. im starting another Calvino tomorrow. i love reading on the Metro.

i feel torn between wanting to do grassroots/bottom-up public health work and desperately wanting to be a writer like Chatwin or Kapuscinski or Orwell and write about the human condition. anthropological and ethnographic, but not anthropology or ethnography. its funny. a whole discipline set up around writing on the human condition and everyday life, but by a group who, far and wide, are not good writers. for it takes a lot of talent to sucessfully portray the magic of daily life and the condition. The Road to Wigan Pier was so great.

so heres some more, adapted from my amazon.com wishlist. just to add to the others, just because.

Birds Without Wings
by Louis de Bernières

Speak, Memory
by Vladimir Nabokov

Desierto: Memories of the Future (Paperback)
by Charles Bowden

Let Us Now Praise Famous Men
by James Agee

Stranger in the Village of the Sick: A Memoir of Cancer, Sorcery, and Healing
by Paul Stoller

A Field Guide to Getting Lost
by Rebecca Solnit

Lines: A Brief History
by Tim Ingold

My Life as an Explorer
by Sven Hedin

When a Crocodile Eats the Sun: A Memoir of Africa
by Peter Godwin

The Great Railway Bazaar
by Paul Theroux

The Soul of the Rhino
by Hemanta Mishra

Spider's House: A Novel
by Paul Bowles

The Voices of Marrakesh: A Record of a Visit
by Elias Canetti

i realize its ideas of the body, place, and memory that get to me, for the best writing i enjoy to read. the experience of remembering being, physically, in a space and place.

i think i will incorperate this into my senior project. Body Toxic was inspiring to read as a piece of literature but as social commentary and i think something like that...

the used bookstore in adams morgan will be a good place to start. all this reading makes me inspired, to be honest. its a nice break from everything else, even if it does lead to me being a bit anti social. but theres always the good conversations in parks with strangers.

hope for humanity.