Saturday, September 13, 2008
Perhaps He Has a Point...
It's a good question. Today I read the article "To Hell With Good Intentions", I forget who the author is, and it's been very stuck in my head since. I'm actually surprised I haven't had to read it at Bard, especially with so many anthropology classes, you'd think it might have come up at some point. But it begs me to ask myself the question, what the hell am I doing here? The author outlines a number of great points, written in the 60's on American volunteers going down to Mexico to help the poor. Besides the excellent comments on how it is imposing another lifestyle and obtrusive, the one that got me was, me paraphrasing, "in the US would you go to a ghetto and tell the community that you were there to help the poor people there?" No. They would tell you to get lost, to fuck off, to use the phrase that would most likely be used. Isn't there something inherently pretentious about the whole idea? Leading me to another of his points: most people, I guess including myself, justify going to do things, such as a semester abroad or volunteering trips, on the grounds that it is also a chance to have a transformative experience. But while doing so, the very presence and idea of this volunteer "saving" the poor helpless people can be harmful in a variety of ways. So, is it worth it?
Lastly...so, why go somewhere else to help people, when there is so much to do right back at home? I don't need to do Peace Corps or do work in Brazil or do volunteer work for a few years after I graduate to help people who have not been born with the same nice life circumstances as I. I could drive 20 minutes from home to do that. I could actually do something at Bard besides study and hang with friends. Or maybe it's the whole idea that I have to do something that is blatantly "helping" people. Cause, in a way, isn't mostly whatever you do helping people, in some way? Or isn't it just enough to support a family and be happy, in the end?
Ah. And of course there is the thing that has been bugging most of us since coming to Belem: we stick out. Obviously. We are, for the most part, a bunch of middle/upper class white kids from America. And everybody sees it. It definitely fits a "matter out of place" model. Luckily, I'm not one of the girls, so I don't really have to deal with constant cat-calls and car honks and other comments. But, it still is strange when everyone either stares at you and, like the man today, wonders what I am doing here, or they just don't acknowledge you at all. And despite how much time, if I were, to do "fieldwork" or "participant observation", I doubt I would really every know the place, people, and culture to at all the same degree as the people here, just as the same would be true if they came to Westtown, PA. Or maybe it's that we never know what's going on in general...
I apologize for the melancholy. Actually, it's not pessimistic at all, it just happens to be the reality of the situation here. While I'm really looking forward to our rural homestays near Manaus, reflecting on this article made me basically confront a lot of mixed feelings I've had about anthropology and doing things outside the US in general. There's so much talk about dependency and cultural imperialism, and do we really justify those claims by saying, "oh, well, I'm passionate about it, my intentions are pure". Well, I guess to hell with it, because it can cause damage regardless. Oh, and nobody's intentions are ever pure. Nothing is ever pure.
On the optimism side, though, it gives me more perspective and drive to think about more I can do back at home, if anything at all. Or ways I can organize my time and energy to things close by. Because in the end, that's all being sustainable is mostly about, yes? Keeping things close and repeatable? And oh, doesn't it take away from empowerment if everything is handed to you by some First-World led NGO? I guess I'll find out over the course of the semester, something to keep an eye out for.
On a more positive note, I'm not just volunteering and being imposing. I am studying, and learning, and learning skills and tools that I can use for the rest of my life. And the way the program is set up, the whole gift relationship is built into the ISP; they want us from the start to do research that can be utilized by people here in Amazonia to better...something. Also, Belem is cool. Last night we went out, meeting up at the Basilica, and walked to a bar/club called the Liverpool. Three cover bands were there singing Audioslave, Pearl Jam, and Foo Fighters. Very cool, might I add. I had a good time. Today a bunch of us met up at Jackie's family's house, as I said earlier, for her grandmother's 77th birthday. Brazilian families here are HUGE. Mind you, these aren't big houses, at all. It was packed. And a very cool experience...maybe we aren't so obtrusive after all, I don't know, its all very confusing and blah. We spent a long time chilling on the porch drinking Guarana soda and Skol beer talking to some of the brothers and cousins while listening to MTV's rap picks blast from the TV in the background. Hippi-Hoppi, its called here. It felt so strange, like being between Brazil and the US. Tonight: who knows. Family is out the church. Phone is charging. Might go meet up with people back at the house or something, who knows? Tomorrow I'm hoping to cruise around the Praca da Republica again and barter for some cool things.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Crap Everything Is Wet Here!
Big mistake.
I walked into my room and my bed was pretty wet, along with parts of the floor. Luckily, thank god, my computer and the family's computer are fine, the only thing is now to just hope tomorrow the sun works its magic. But I must have said desculpe (I'm sorry) a million times to my host family. I feel terrible about it. Luckily today was laundry day...
Although, I have to say, being stuck in the rain trying to wait underneath things for cover was a pretty good exercise in patience. All for now, I need to read and maybe just watch some TV with Judah or something.
Oh, and went to the Bosque today. Saw a manatee. Very excited. I'm going to go back for pictures...
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Getting Lost is Getting Fun
People here love Obama. I went home for lunch today, and Diego’s mother’s husband was there to eat with us, and I think I was actually able to more or less understand what he was talking to me about. He was asking me where I’m from, how I like Belém, what
- Look into the Health and Happiness Project some more
- Works with about 140 communities along the river with linked health, forest economy, and community empowerment issues
- Communication infrastructure programs to improve access and delivery of healthcare
- Hospital boat (!sweet)
- Look into the FEA, small NGO dealing with modes of sustainable/appropriate technologies as a mode of community empowerment
- Do some research on health side of large industrial/technological projects and displacement/health/culture loss or gain
- Turuci (spelled wrong) Dam
- Large number of mining projects forcing caboclos off land
- Belemonte Dam in process of being developed (will be third largest dam in the world)
I also picked up Health Ecology: Health, culture, and human-environment interaction from our library to browse through over the next few nights, just to get a general overview of the subject. Right now, all we are supposed to be doing for the next 2 weeks is researching and zoning in on our ISP. I first need to understand the based of ecology-human health interaction before I can get into the specifics. But it’s all very interesting, and I also found an article called The Political Ecology of Famine in the Third World in the Liberation Ecologies book. Lots to do, so for tonight I’m just laying in the hammock reading. But its nice. And I’m sure there will be plenty to keep me busy this weekend.
Monday, September 8, 2008
A Little Tour of Belem
Today I went to the mall again to try and buy a prepaid cell phone with a friend who has a Brazilian passport, but turns out that you need a Brazilain ID card to buy one, so, no dice today. It turned out to be an ok experience in the end, because we decided to walk back to the SIT office, which is a 2 hour walk, a little less once you factor in the times we got a little lost. Felt good to get some exercise in, although I kind of blew that by giving in to a Guarana craving, this awesome Brazilian soda.
Right now everyone is our group is basically trying to get cell phones and figure out means of transportation so that we can go out an explore the city a little at night, which I would love. It was good walking from the mall today, because it basically gave me a little look at the main route from mall to office, which are mais ou menos the polar ends of the city. Might go to a jazz club tomorrow night, should be fun, especially figuring out the taxis here in Belem...although today in the cell phone store I had to try to convey that I needed a cheap prepaid cell phone, and I think I did fine, so, a little confidence boost in the Portuguese department:
...Eu preciso de dois telefones celulares preparados mais baratos, por favor
Yeah. Time to finish my Portuguese homework, read up on the Health and Happiness Project for ISP a little, maybe watch some more TV with the host family, and rock out in the hammock.
Boa noite
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Vamos a ingreja
Wow. I can't remember the last time that I can say I felt really moved by a church service. A ingreja, the church, was a very small little building about 15 minutes drive from the apartment. We met up with Judah coming from drum lessons there 30 mins before, and I wasn't sure if I would be poorly dressed in my t-shirt and casual pants. Luckily, the whole church experience I got here was entirely different than anything in the US. No dressed up people. No formal lectures from a priest. No stifling atmosphere. The whole room was exploding with passion and faith. I was able to somewhat read along with a reading or two from the Old Testament in the Portuguese Bible. Both this one lady, I think Sarah was her name, and Diego spoke, did a reading or two, and so on. But the really moving part of the whole thing was hearing the emotions that poured out of everyone while they were praying to Jesus and O Senhor. I've never seen or heard people physically get emotional and cry with their faith in the heavens, and although it's completely foreign to anything in a Quaker Meeting House, I could definitely appreciate it. You don't need to be able to comprehend Portuguese to be able to understand the feelings that the people in this room were experiencing and devoting themselves to. It was a really special experience. I'm going back in a few hours, actually.
It made me think a lot about empowerment and how much community was there. Activists can talk all they want about needing to get people organized, an
After pizza, which is muito gostozo here, we went out to the old docks right along the Amazon. In the moonlight, very nice. I want to go back with some friends and walk around. I was able to find out from the people I was with a little about the boat trips and such. Talked about American music, learned how to say super awesome: "paid-egua!". All in all, a very good night, and a good day. I came back and was so pooped I just passed out instantly. One of the members of the church, who teaches beginner english, was telling me how tired she feels after speaking english, so I must be exhausted. How true.
Today has likewise been good. Portugese has gone well hoje (I hope you all are actually picking up the little Portuguese
As a side note, I finally found a youtube video of Bard's acapella group singing Africa by Toto. So happy.
Tchau
Friday, September 5, 2008
Welcome to the Jungle?
It’s now been about one full day with my host fam. It was fun talking to everyone today at class about their families and the awkward initial interaction. Everyone agreed though, once we all just got in the car, it seemed really normal. And good. Today I got to experience the 10 minute walk from the apartment building to the SIT office. On the way there we pass by the Bosque (apparently there is a manatee inside), and Léa was telling me that people often go running inside of it, or around it, or the like, so maybe some mornings I will look into that. I need to get a cheap pair of running shoes though. Speaking of shoes…I think my boots are totaled. I never want to wear them again, they still smell. Which brings me back to the mangroves and Orientation.
into the sustainability agenda, what Gustavo called an “ethnographic museum” project (a local history of the mangrove communities), an NGO clinic to help facilitate and guide local organizations, and a biosocial indicator program. The whole thing was pretty amazing. The next day, we got a chance to then go out to the mangrove forests by boat and visit one of the small fishing groups that work on the beach where the Espadarte port will be built.
The boat ride took about an hour and a half, but I really enjoyed it. Took a lot of pictures. However, I did not bring my camera into the magroves, seeing as we were going to be walking in THICK mud and up to our waists (and sometimes shoulders) in mangrove salt water. Not good for camera. My friend’s camera got a little wet, and now isn’t working. Sucks. But being in the mangrove was beautiful We got to learn a little bit about the ecology of this unique ecosystem. The mangrove tree species need to compensate for both the high salt content of the water and the low oxygen level of the soils, and thus is why the roots are the giant umbrella shape over the water that you can see in the picture. The roots not only filter out the salt, but also absorb the oxygen from the air. Although the whole system leads to less biodiversity as a whole, the quality of life for the few species that exist in the mangroves is plentiful. Small crabs and shrimp thrive there, and we saw a few small crabs (2-3 mm) crawling around on people’s shoulders. Likewise, the birds of the region, like flamingoes, develop their reddish tint from the amount of shrimp they eat. They are very red, and I mean crayon box/coloring marker red, so you can see that there’s no lack of shrimp or crab there. After listening to Gustavo and some members of Peabiru talk to us, we started to hike to the beach. Yes, the beach. It, too, was really great. After jumping in the water for a good hour or so, we ate sandwiches and kept walking until we got to the fishing hut.
me lemon and salt over the grill. It was really cool though. We then walked to where the boat picked us up and sailed back to town, where the vans were waiting for us, and we drove back to the sitio. The rest of orientation, although informative, wasn’t all that exciting. I did a lot of soduko, walked along the dirt roads talking with people, played some gin-rummy, and enjoyed my mosquito net.
entually we will all find and select a project advisor who can help to guide us and help us with research methods, and so forth. Although I don’t know where I want to do mine, I know I want to do something linking together ecosystem health and community public health services, and how people join/use social movements, community based development, or appropriate technology means/microfinance to combat the connected degradation of their community’s health and that of their ecosystem. For sure, that means my ISP will somehow involve aquatic ecology and river ecosystem health, perhaps combined with waterborne diseases, or the malnutrition that can come with non-sustainable means of agriculture, or something similar.
Tchau! Saudades
Thursday, September 4, 2008
So, yes. Orientation. Day one was long, lots of general stuff to cover. Honestly, I'm just going to pan over the whole thing and just do the main cool parts. So, the second day there....Saturday, we had what in every SIT program is called a Drop Off Exercise. Basically, you are given two questions, in this case in Portuguese, and, you guessed it, are dropped off via van in a random place and have 3 hours to obtain the info. In our case, most of us were dropped off along little agricultural villages or fishing villages. I don't know the name of the town I was dropped off in. It was very very small. I had two questions: 1) what sorts of artisan crafts do you make in this village, and what are the most expensive and 2) what is "espardarte"?. So, in my little Portuguese I tried asking people around, and people either told me that there weren't any such shops or lojas in this town, or that the closest one was in the nearby city, Curuca. So, I spend a lot of time walking down highways and talking to people along the way. Needless to say, in 3 hours I did not find any art things. I just drank all my water very quickly. Although I did find out what Espadarte was. I was told by two people that it was a restaurant in Curuca. Ok, great. So, we all reunited from our separate little adventures, and found out that actually, espadarte is the name of a certain fish, an ocean fish that many of the fishermen in such communities catch. It is also the name of a new restaurant/hotel in the city. Also, it is the name of a new port that will be built in Caruca, which will be the largest port in Latin America. Many of the fishermen are upset about its construction because it will threaten their livelihood, bring more people into the region, and their prices for fish will drop, both due to increased fishing/merchant activity, and less fish in general, means less they are able to sell. To get a better perspective on all of this, and not just talk about it, Gustavo had a whole days worth of excursions ahead of us, easily the best part of orientation, involving trudging through the waters of a mangrove forest, talking with a community based ecotourism and environmental education NGO, and listening to a fisherman talk to us on one of the beaches of Caruca about the building of the fort while he cooked us basically the most delicious fish ever. But, that is what I will update this about tomorrow.