lets re-do

i am almost finished my paper.

i am going to get a haircut.

go for a run outside.

go to the waterfall.

go out to dinner with friends one last time.

pack.

go to the tent party.

wake up and pack.

and maybe even just leave saturday.

i have to get out of here. this shitty awful semester just keeps going. not at all how i wanted it to turn out. things happened. it all pulled through. now is what it is. summer looms so close in the yet distance. i can't wait to just get away and be on my own again. im tired of sarcasm, cynicism, pessimism, and jadedness. the weathers great, i can't wait to be back with westtown kids for a week and just randomly go to a creek. or just drive somewhere. i miss the random play of it all. i miss things and people feeling real, not covered up by layers of jokes and weird acts. it'll feel good to just be me again in the process.

i don't know what the fucked happened this semester. but im glad its coming to an end.